I’m sitting here in amazement that it’s been two years now since I began writing this blog. Time flies when we’re not looking. Looking back my life is so different now it’s amazing how things change so fast. What we learn, what we let go of, what we become. I like to think that I have become a much better version of myself in the last two years, with the best still waiting around the corner. It’s a process, this thing we call life and I try to spend as much of it as I can becoming better than I was…just a moment ago.
One of the things I’ve learned on this journey is that fear is not the bad guy like I thought it was. Fear is just that still small voice that is telling you that you are headed into unfamiliar territory. It only becomes the bad guy if we turn it into crippling fear and we use it as an excuse to not move forward. This was a hard lesson to learn, because fear gets a bad rap out in the world. We get the message early on that we are supposed to go out and conquer the world and never fear any of it, and if we do then we must be broken somehow. The real message is to go out and conquer the world and don’t let your fear STOP you. Let it guide you safely into the unknown, and when fear stops you in your tracks to tell you that there is a giant boulder headed your way…you should listen to it and RUN!! Use it as your guide, your protector, your friend…not to hide behind, but to walk beside.When I started writing this I thought one day that I was going to wake up and never feel fear again. I never imagined that instead I would come full circle to a place where I no longer feared fear itself but respected it and in a strange way cherish its lessons in my life. That’s the trick to it really, but it’s a fine line that we walk between understanding the meaning of fear and letting it get out of control. I am proud to say that it is no longer in control of me, by making friends with my fear I am now in control of it.
As I sit here writing this I know that people all over the world are busy making plans for a better tomorrow. Summing up all of last year’s mistakes and putting together plans for how this year is going to be different. That goes double for me since the New Year also brings with it my birthday. Most people have a chance part way through the year to rehash, rethink and replan, but mine comes all at once. I like it better that way, just once a year to consider all of the possibilities that I have a chance to bring to my door in this fabulous life of mine. One of the big new changes in this year is I am saying farewell to my pursuit of being fearless and with that this blog. I am going to be taking my new found friend fear and journeying into the unfamiliar territory of living from the heart….stay tuned to the big new things I will be bringing to the world this year. Thank you all that have been on this journey with me…blessings on the rest of yours.
You rock, dear friend.and with that it says it all
Posted by: charlie moore | 01/02/2013 at 11:25 PM